First post: My gap year and why I took it

Hi there!

Since this is my very first post on here, I wanted to keep it simple and write a little about myself and what led me to creating this blog.

Last Wednesday was the third Wednesday I experienced in college. After passing my high school exams this year, I felt like studying something media related in college was the best thing for me to do. I dream of a career in the movies one day and part of the course I signed up for was about this. Because I didn't have an art portfolio studying film at an arts academy wasn't possible for me and since I didn't want to 'lose' time taking a gap year I decided to study somewhere else. At the beginning of this month, the moment was there: I started a study programme concerning media and entertainment management and although I was excited to go to college and move to a new place, things did not live up to my expectations.

From the beginning, I felt like I was not in the right place. During high school all I did was dream about the time I had passed my exams and I could finally move out of the small village I live in and discover the world. All I wanted was to live in a nice city and make new friends with the same interests as me. However, the city of the university I was attending did not appeal to me at all, I felt alone at uni and to make things worse the course was much more management related than I thought it would be. What seemed like the perfect study programme for me turned out to be something that felt completely wrong. The past few weeks were hard and I never found myself not in doubt whether I should already quit school and take a gap year. After about two and a half week, I realised I didn't want to spend the coming three years in a place I didn't want to be at and I saw the advantages of taking a gap year. I decided the best thing to do was to drop out of uni.

Now, I'm sitting here writing this and I feel much more relaxed than I have in weeks. This feels like the right thing to do. There are so many things I never had the time for during high school that I want to spend more time on. I want to write, make music and videos, read, gain knowledge about things that interest me, watch movies I never had the time to watch and take some time to get to know myself. A gap year feels like the right thing to do in order to work on that. I can now work on an arts portfolio as well so that I can try to get into an arts academy next year as well, which might be the best option for me after all. I also want to document this year and the time after it. I want to share my life and everything I come across while working towards my goal of working in the movies and living my dreams. That is why I decided to create this blog. To share my life with you, but also anything else I come across that I find worth sharing. I hope I'll have a lot of great things to share with you the coming time and that you'll like what I write about.

I guess that's it for now. Also, I promise my average post length won't be this long and that there will be better pictures ;)


Love,

Leyla