I can't believe it's only the third week of my gap year as I'm writing this. I feel like I quit college months ago and that I have been home much longer than two weeks. Although I don't feel bored yet because there are many things I still want to do, I find myself getting sad over the cold weather and the fact that I live in a boring, small village with nothing to do. The idea to just step on a plane and leave for a sunny destination comes up in my mind every once in a while. However, I haven't planned any kind of trip yet. There are still a lot of things I can do from home and I also don't feel like I can afford to travel right now. So, I just try to keep myself busy and entertained.
Last week, it was really cold and cloudy outside, and the weather hasn't changed much over the days. I guess fall is really getting here right now. The leaves are still green but the weather itself is kind of depressing. I do love the colours of autumn and all the coziness that comes with it, but since I'm forced to be home all the time, there isn't really a feeling of being happy to come home in a warm house after a long day, because I don't have anywhere to be. On one hand, that is a great thing because I have all the time to do whatever I want, but over the past days I've realised being home all day, every day, is not a great thing. I think it's important to have places to go, things to do and to keep moving forward somehow. I still do try to keep going forward however, through doing a lot of reading, writing, playing my guitar etc. and I think that if I keep doing that, I might be really happy after this year because I'll learn so much of that. Yet, I need something to look forward to, I want to do something big this year because this is my chance; nothing really keeps me here. I think the coming days or weeks I will work on that, and think about what I really want to do this year. Also, I'll have to make a plan concerning my studies next year, because I definitely want to go back to college.
Last week wasn't a really special week. Like I wrote before, it was quite cold outside and I felt cold all the time because of that. I spent some time answering a letter from one of my penpals. It is just a really relaxing thing to write a long letter, then decorate it and I also love attaching cute things to my letter, because I know it is just great to get an envelope with loads of nice stuff in it. On Thursday, I went to a friend who is taking a gap year too. This was a great excuse to ride my bike since she lives about 10 kilometers away from me. I used to ride my bike to school every day when I was still in high school, and I really enjoyed the view around me and listening to music on my way back then. Although it was a long ride, I kind of miss it now. Me and my friend had a sleepover and watched a movie. Plus, we had a lot of food. This is another thing I'm kind of concerned about. Now I'm home so much and I don't really go to the gym or anything like that, I need to make sure I don't eat too much. This can be challenging, though, because I just LOVE food.
On Saturday evening, two of my cousins came over. It was so nice to catch up with them because I hadn't seen them in a long time and we had a great evening. Then Sunday came and I was afraid that I would really have a bad day like the Sunday before. Although every day can be seen like some sort of Sunday for me, I still don't really like the Sunday vibe because most of the time everyone is bored at home, especially now it's getting colder. However, I was happy because me and my mum went to Ikea. I needed a desk for my room and fortunately we found and good one. I also took some shelves to put on the wall because the walls in my room are kind of bleak and empty. We had dinner at Ikea as well and then we went home. It was a good way to finish the week.
This new week for me will be about editing some old holiday videos and reading. I got Les Misérables in a second hand shop and I just started reading it. I must say that although it is an old story, I really like it so far. I'm intending on reading a lot of classics this year and I think I might write a review on this one when I finish it.
Are you taking a gap year as well, or do you want to share your thoughts on this post? Feel free to leave a comment!
Love,
Leyla
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